I can’t remember the last time in my life that I wasn’t “working towards the next thing”. In high school, I was eager to graduate and go to college. In College, I wanted to finish school and marry my boyfriend. Once married, I couldn’t wait to have kids and buy a house. Then I wanted to buy a bigger house. These desires have controlled me and the way I have lived my life. We are surrounded by a culture of want, and it’s so easy to get wrapped up in that.
At the core of these desires lies one truth.
I have been unsatisfied with what I have and where I am.
So, I started to do some soul searching…What gives me life? What makes me thrive? What do I crave?
For me, the answer was RELATIONSHIPS.
My dissatisfaction was coming from some of the THINGS that I had worked so hard to have. Too much of my time, energy and money have been spent on THINGS. Things that can’t come with me in the end. I’m not really sure why it took me 20 years to understand that we don’t take our possessions to the grave. But am I ever glad I get it now. I want to invest in things that matter. I want to invest in relationships with others. I want to build the kingdom of God here on earth.
This life is not the dress rehearsal, this is the real thing.
And you see, at our core we were created for Jesus. We were made for relationship with Him and with others. So as I sit here, in the home that I dreamed about owning, filled with countless possessions that we worked hard to have, something is still missing. My heart is stirring and Jesus is shifting my perspective.
I want less stuff….
And I want a fuller life…
I want a smaller home. And instead of filling it with stuff, I want it filled with the love and laughter of my family and friends.
I want more time with my husband, instead of spending all evening tidying, cleaning and budgeting. I want to sit with him, talk to him about his day, be his best friend, be his lover.
I want to play with my kids more, instead of following them around picking up all the toys that don’t get played with.
I want deeper relationships with my friends. I want to be more intentional, be vulnerable, host them in my tiny kitchen and feed them.
I want to live with my hands open, ready and able to give and serve as Jesus asks.
I want to love well, laugh lots and make amazing memories with the people I cherish.
We only get one shot at this life, a measly 85-90 years if we are lucky. I don’t want to spend the time I have unsatisfied and wanting.
In a world that is focussed on the next best thing, may our perspectives be heavenward.
May we allow Jesus to shift our focus.
May we want less, and make room for more of what matters.
May we find freedom in a simpler life.
“Don’t store up treasures here on earth!…Store your treasures in heaven, where moths and rust cannot destroy, and thieves do not break in and steal! Wherever your treasure is, there the desires of your heart will also be.” Matthew 6:19-21
Attached is one of the newest singles by Switchfoot. May you be inspired to live this beautiful, precious life well.